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maygraderhemaI promised myself I was going to post here more often, but have failed miserably. Here's to fresh starts.
The house continues to take more time and energy than I actually have, at the moment, for reasons unrelated to the house itself. (More on that below.) But we are making progress on some little things. The bathroom construction is finished and now it really is the little things like towel hooks and the shower curtain for the tub and getting some decoration in there. Mel has pretty much taken over the smaller bathroom as her own, so it's just four of us using the big bathroom which would be fine, except the childlet has a bad habit of taking her bath (she loves the clawfoot tub) and then leaving all her discard clothes and towels all over the place. Like, when she's done and I go in, it looks like she stood in the middle of the bathroom and flung her clothes from one end of the bathroom to another; (it's a big bathroom,) and there is water everywhere.
It's the little things that make me want to throttle her somedays. That said, she does do all the litter boxes so, I'll keep her.
Slow progress and maybe TMI:
Progress has been slow mostly because my mental health has been on a downward spiral for a couple of months. I changed insurance in January, and my new insurance does not want to pay for the anti-depressant booster my Doctor and I found that worked when I capped out on the max dosage of Effexor. We've tried several other anti-depressants, but none of them worked very well. The booster did, and then January came and suddenly it was one of those top tier drugs insurance didn't want to cover and there's currently no generic form.
The drop off was pretty fast and everyone in the house knows it. I've told people for years that without these meds, I'm not a functional human being; I can barely motivate myself to get out of bed. I don't find joy in cooking anymore or working in the yard, Mel asks me (at my request) when was the last time I bathed and reminds me to change my clothes. A garbage bag broke a couple of weeks ago, and I cried for like 30 minutes. (I did clean it up.}
I have alarms set for all my usual tasks (cats, dishes, clean the bathroom, etc.) so I don't just sleep my days away. And even though I sleep a lot, I'm always exhausted.
I was doing some unpacking (again, because Mel and Jessi poked at me. If they can get me started, I do mostly okay) and found a new bottle of the booster that I had packed for the move, so as of Sunday I have it to take again and in just three days, the difference is...scary. Knowing that I only have a month's supply is frightening. I am working on an appeal for the denial, which means I have to go get bloodwork done. (Not as easy as it sounds. The closest lab my insurance will cover is two hours away -- we really are in the middle of nowhere.) I can't afford to pay out of pocket (it runs about $1600 a month, $1300 with GoodRx). I'm also looking at manufacturer discounts, but in my current state of mind, even though I'm better, it's still a steep hill for me to climb. I'm ploughing away though, so keep your fingers crossed for m.
One of the big things currently is to get the house pressure washed. It's a huge house so, not exactly cheap, but this grand old lady needs it badly, and hopefully I will find the time and energy to get some bulbs in the ground this spring.
We'd like to get her painted too, but that's going to take some saving and will have to happen after I pay property taxes. She's all white right now, but we've chosen a plum and blue and tan combination that will look marvelous once we get her done. She's really not a classic victorian (there are some gorgeous ones in the nearest town) and doesn't have all the gingerbreading, but she is a beauty and deserves a fancy dress.
We also hope to get the main hall/living room painted by summer too.
We've had better weather lately, and that makes me happy. I can sit on the font porch with my coffee and talk to folks walking along the road on the way to our two stores.
I'll try to get some pictures up.
The house continues to take more time and energy than I actually have, at the moment, for reasons unrelated to the house itself. (More on that below.) But we are making progress on some little things. The bathroom construction is finished and now it really is the little things like towel hooks and the shower curtain for the tub and getting some decoration in there. Mel has pretty much taken over the smaller bathroom as her own, so it's just four of us using the big bathroom which would be fine, except the childlet has a bad habit of taking her bath (she loves the clawfoot tub) and then leaving all her discard clothes and towels all over the place. Like, when she's done and I go in, it looks like she stood in the middle of the bathroom and flung her clothes from one end of the bathroom to another; (it's a big bathroom,) and there is water everywhere.
It's the little things that make me want to throttle her somedays. That said, she does do all the litter boxes so, I'll keep her.
Slow progress and maybe TMI:
Progress has been slow mostly because my mental health has been on a downward spiral for a couple of months. I changed insurance in January, and my new insurance does not want to pay for the anti-depressant booster my Doctor and I found that worked when I capped out on the max dosage of Effexor. We've tried several other anti-depressants, but none of them worked very well. The booster did, and then January came and suddenly it was one of those top tier drugs insurance didn't want to cover and there's currently no generic form.
The drop off was pretty fast and everyone in the house knows it. I've told people for years that without these meds, I'm not a functional human being; I can barely motivate myself to get out of bed. I don't find joy in cooking anymore or working in the yard, Mel asks me (at my request) when was the last time I bathed and reminds me to change my clothes. A garbage bag broke a couple of weeks ago, and I cried for like 30 minutes. (I did clean it up.}
I have alarms set for all my usual tasks (cats, dishes, clean the bathroom, etc.) so I don't just sleep my days away. And even though I sleep a lot, I'm always exhausted.
I was doing some unpacking (again, because Mel and Jessi poked at me. If they can get me started, I do mostly okay) and found a new bottle of the booster that I had packed for the move, so as of Sunday I have it to take again and in just three days, the difference is...scary. Knowing that I only have a month's supply is frightening. I am working on an appeal for the denial, which means I have to go get bloodwork done. (Not as easy as it sounds. The closest lab my insurance will cover is two hours away -- we really are in the middle of nowhere.) I can't afford to pay out of pocket (it runs about $1600 a month, $1300 with GoodRx). I'm also looking at manufacturer discounts, but in my current state of mind, even though I'm better, it's still a steep hill for me to climb. I'm ploughing away though, so keep your fingers crossed for m.
One of the big things currently is to get the house pressure washed. It's a huge house so, not exactly cheap, but this grand old lady needs it badly, and hopefully I will find the time and energy to get some bulbs in the ground this spring.
We'd like to get her painted too, but that's going to take some saving and will have to happen after I pay property taxes. She's all white right now, but we've chosen a plum and blue and tan combination that will look marvelous once we get her done. She's really not a classic victorian (there are some gorgeous ones in the nearest town) and doesn't have all the gingerbreading, but she is a beauty and deserves a fancy dress.
We also hope to get the main hall/living room painted by summer too.
We've had better weather lately, and that makes me happy. I can sit on the font porch with my coffee and talk to folks walking along the road on the way to our two stores.
I'll try to get some pictures up.
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